sara is still such a baby to me; it's crazy to think that she was this age when i had katie. sometimes i feel so bad for katie, that she should've had more time with me to herself. sometimes i feel that it's so selfish to add another kid into the mix so quickly.

but then other times i think she would be so lonely without her sister, especially on days like today, erev yom tov, when the best i can do for them is let them watch tv and play indoors with each other all day while i cook and clean (and take 5 minutes to blog!) they can entertain each other endlessly, even more than they abuse each other.

i still feel mixed about it though. what's done is done and i'm so thankful for both of my girls, but i definitely would not want to go through this again. forget about how hard it is as the mother, but i think it's a big injustice to the child.