and the work keeps on piling up

i thought i was finished after my linear algebra exam last week, my paper due this week, and my psych midterm yesterday. of course i have the last psych experiment and paper, but that's something i can handle in increments over the next month.

but then last night in multivariate calc i found out i have an exam in one week. and i don't know what's flying, having opened up the book only once this semester. so now i need to teach myself the entire semester's worth of material in six days.

and the linear algebra exam i studied my butt off for, i guess it paid off since i got the 3rd highest grade in the class... a D-. i almost cried. i can forget raising my GPA this semester.

if i don't get into teaching fellows, i don't know what i'm going to do. i won't be able to get into brooklyn for graduate school with these grades and will have to go to either hunter or staten island if i take that route.

i think i need to fuck everything and put my all into preparing a knockout lesson plan for the interview and practicing good responses to common interview questions. and if it means my grades fall, so be it. it will be worth it if i get in.

and if i don't get in, hunter or si, or actuarial exam here i come. or i guess i can always beg the folks at brooklyn to let me in with provisions.