ai: boy am i glad i missed luke menard sing tonight. i liked most of the guys. danny n is sucktastically fabulous and since he's a ton more entertaining than chikeze, i'd like to see him stay on. so my hope for this week is that luke and chikadee go byebye.

ww: i lost 2.4 lbs last week. i'm eating a little too much pb&j, but i expect another loss this week.

kids: i've been stressing for the last couple of months what to do with my 3 year old come september. she's pretty smart academically and learns new concepts quickly, but her language is significantly delayed and she doesn't understand questions and descriptions. plus she loves to hit and bite her classmates. she's too smart for special ed but if i put her into a regular ed class, she would be the bad kid and would probably get yelled at all the time which i don't want.

so i visited a special ed preschool today and i was pleasantly surprised. they split up the classes by learning abilities and not by age, and the kids seemed very normal for the most part. and 80% of the kids who go there mainstream into regular classrooms within 1-2 years. plus it's free if she's approved by the board of ed. i'm really crossing my fingers because she needs the extra help.

if she doesn't get approved, the school by me has 22+ kids and 3 teachers and costs $500 a month plus $400 to register. this school has 3 teachers to 12 kids and includes transportation all for the low cost of $0.

other: i need a haircut desperately. i think if i lose 20 lbs i'll get one as a reward

my landlord wants to raise us $200/month rent this year. she bargained us to $100, but she also wants to dictate my laundry schedule as well and harass me day after day about it. so i'll be looking for a new apartment shortly. i'm excited at the prospect of downgrading and actually saving money for once. since my dad's not with us anymore, we can even move to a big 2 bedroom. maybe just maybe we could buy something of our own within five years.