it's after 3 and i'm up again! this needs to stop!

i've perfected my lesson plan and am still practicing. i'm excited and nervous, especially considering i've been on 2 job interviews ever, and that was like 5 years ago. but what can i do, i'll either nail it or not!

i still need a shirt to wear for the interview. i wish i wasn't so freaking fat and i could walk into a normal store and find something to wear. actually, i wish i didn't freaking love eating so much!

yes, i love food. another bad habit of mine. i lost 40 lbs rather easily, gained a couple back, and now i just can't get on track again. i like ice cream and cake, and cookies, and challah, and cereal, and oatmeal, and kugel, and chocolate, i LOVE chocolate! these things do me no good though. i wish i could snap out of it.

i promise myself though, after the hell of this semester is over, i will be back in the gym. but i gotta get through this last week first.